I read my own writing and felt like somebody else. Was I ever been that joyful? Was I ever that bitter? Was I ever that brilliant? Have I ever been that selfish?
Was I ever that girl?
I used to sing like no one hears. Dance like no one watches. Love like never been hurt. Live like heaven is on earth.
Write like no one will read.
But I no longer dance, no longer sing. No longer write cause I know someone will read. And they will think of me as a dissappointment.
No longer love cause I know how much it hurts.
No longer live cause I know heaven is not on earth.
So I tried to cry cause I am not supposed to like this me.
But I cry no more cause I know I will be one day dance again.
Even with the bitterness and the tears... I will dance like no one watches.
I will sing like no one listens.
And I will write like no one will be dissappointed in me.
So one of these days, when it rains, I will dance and dance and dance...
So I won't feel the tears falling on my face.